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I just really need to talk about this…

Lately I’ve been having this uneasy feeling that refuses to go away. I’ve been holding back my feeling for so long now and its messing me up. I really need to talk about it though part of me feels like I’m just being silly. I might look at this one day and think about how silly I was being… but for now I just really need to talk about.

I feel like I’m being hunted by the past and can’t move forward anymore. I was an A student with three diplomas. Ill I wanted to do back then was programming. Now I’m studying Mechanical Engineering but I can think of is “Then what?”. I’m failing almost all my subject this semester. I can’t study for exams or even bother to try because what’s the point? I do love mechanics and machines but I can’t help but to wonder what if I finished this diploma and it ended up like the rest… “wall decoration”. Why bother? Why try?

Does the job I’m actually seeking even exists? and…. what if I made the wrong choice all along?

I don’t know what is it exactly but I feel like I’m suffocating. As if I’m inside a shell and I can’t break free. Also Like I lost the me that I used to be. Don’t get me wrong I’m trying to stay positive. though nothing I’ve tired managed to shake off those feelings. I feel like I lost something that I can not regain.

 

Now I think I’m being overly sensitive.

 

I really wish I can find that girl I used to be…

 

P.S. I just needed to talk it out..

 
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Posted by on November 12, 2013 in Personal

 

Poem: Lost in the Darkness

Written by: Sayuicero

Joy I can no longer sustain
Frustration lingers upon me
Sorrow stains my heart
Reason evanesce from me
Blinded no longer can see
This path that lays before me

In the depth of my despair
An angel smiled upon me
“Be happy” it says…
Though darkness calls for me
Come dear child, this world is not for you
The angel flickered rays of light yet
Swarming darkness amended me

Play with me dear child
Darkness becomes me

P.S. please share your opinion about my short poem with me.

 
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Posted by on August 9, 2013 in Personal

 

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My Trip to Dubai

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Yesterday I went to Dubai with my brother for the day.

First we went to the Beach plaza center, there was this awesome store there called Silver Lake

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If you’re into toys and hobbies I totally recommend that you go and check it out. Also if your looking to get someone a cute gift Silver Lake should be your destination.

After that we had Lunch at Manga Sushi Restaurant I’m an Otaku so I was happy just seeing the restaurant…

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Those were some pictures of the restaurant and the table where we sat ;p.
I have to say the food there was so delicious…
We ordered:
-Lobster Nest and Fried Calamari for Appetizer.
-Otaku and Rainbow Maki Rolls.

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P.s: since the food was so delicious I forgot to take a picture of the appetizer.

-Seafood Ramen for Main Dish.
-Luffy and Leychee drinks.

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After that we went to Dubai mall

I got some manga from the best bookstore in the world Kinokuniya.

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Then went to virgin magastore since I miss it from kuwait.

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After we did some shopping it was time for cake… And what’s a better place to go than Hummingbird Bakery!!

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We got these cakes and… The carrot cake. Best carrot cake I’ve ever tried in my life.

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Even Danbo think this carrot cake is to die for!

We stopped by Blue Dragon and I got Gaara of the sand figure.

Later that day we went to Emirates mall, and had pancakes from iHop.

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Then stopped by Geekay for some video games.

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For me this is my idea of a perfect day… January 4th, 2013 is a day to remember.

 
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Posted by on January 5, 2013 in Personal

 

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Education in Kuwait part 2

This post is what happened after my previous post

This part is only about what happened with gust university…

March 2012, I went to gust to ask them about the credit transfer for Box Hill student. April 2012, they told me that they transfer 27 credits. Meaning I’m not getting a scholarship, which is fine as long as I don’t have to retake the subject I finished. So, they are willing to accept me as a student for computer science major.
Late May 2012, they called me again to take the placement test. I took the test on June 2012. I didn’t do well which was totally my fault, so I asked to retake the test and they said that I could not. We’re now in July 2012, I get called again to complete my papers and become a gust student. I went there with all the papers and paid.

So it’s all good right?

August 30, 2012… At 12 in the afternoon, I received a call from gust. They said that they are now taking more credits and I can apply for a scholarship. The reason I know the exact time of that call is because I was just back from box hill with my graduation gown.

So it’s good news and all…

September 2nd, 2012 11:16 am, I’m waiting at gust… 2:55 pm, they speak with me and tell me that the scholarship is for MIS major not computer science. They ask me to come the next day to see if the scholarship is possible for computer science. September 3rd, 2012 9:00 am, i’m there. then they tell me that they cancelled all the credits for computer science major. Meaning I have to do 4 years of university. Even though I was already registered as a student there… They gave me my number and username. And now this?


Facts:
- There is no way in hell I’m majoring in MIS. :)

I would love to know what you guys have to suggest or say…

 
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Posted by on September 3, 2012 in Personal

 

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Education in Kuwait

This is my personal experience with education in kuwait

I graduated from a government high school with a low GPA(“D” student) in Science Major. I got a low GPA due to the fact that I’m dyslexic and none of my teachers believed that I had dyslexia. I’m not trying to make excuses for myself, I’m only stating a fact. I was a late graduate, which means I finished after a summer course. By the time I finished all colleges, universities, institutes have closed their doors for applying.
Due to the circumstance I had to stay home for a whole semester. Later on, I was told that PAAET is opened for registration. So I went there and applied. They told me that I could only be accepted in special training courses and that I could choose any major I want. When I went to the special training courses to choose the major I wanted they said I wouldn’t be able to get in the computer programming course and that I had to choose a different major.
At the point, you could only imagine my frustration. Though within a month I got accepted to a computer programming course. My special training course was in an institute called Qualitas. As I was studying there, rumors were spreading around saying that we can complete our studies with the special training course diploma. I had to confirm that information so I went to PAAET admission office and asked them about rumors. Turns out it’s just a rumor.
As I am eager for knowledge and getting a higher degree I asked around. I was told that Box Hill College would accept me and I can complete my studies after I get my diploma from there. Let me just mention that a lot have changed from high school to PAAET. I became an “A” student and finished a year of Qualitas diploma. I applied to Box Hill during that time and got accepted there. So I was now studying at both Qalitas institute and Box Hill college. I studied hard. I had literally no social life. I went from an “A” student to a 4.0 student.
After that semester I heard rumors that I might not be able to complete my studies after I finish Box Hill. So I kept asking the college if I could, they were convinced that its possible. So I trusted them. Little have I known. I was studying Web development/System administration… Box Hill used to offer a dual ICT diploma. Now they only offer a web development diploma. Anyways so by that time. I graduated from PAAET (Qualitas special trianing institution) with a 3.7 GPA which mean excellent student with honer. I don’t know if that was supposed to be surprising to me, but turned out I can’t use the PAAET diploma for anything. I still had Box Hill, still studying, getting A’s.
Now I’ve graduated from Box Hill college with a 3.5 GPA and I went looking for a university. I went to GUST they told me they would only transefer 27 credits which is less than a year and it doesn’t allow me to get a scholarship. Then I went to Ministry of higher education, they said that they don’t send diploma student to study abroad. So I went to PAAET they said they can accept me on my special training diploma if I’ve worked for 4 years first. (I don’t know why I would need to study if I’ve settled in a job for 4 years).
So I went to AUK I was told that they accept students from Box Hill. I waited there in line and got to see one of the employees. I don’t want to mention the details, but as rude as she was I had to leave her office. Apperantly they accept all majors from our college except for ICT which is my major. So the only university left that has my major is AUM. I went there and waited for 2 hours to be told that they don’t accept diploma students.

At this moment I have 3 diplomas, (Web Development/System Administration/Computer programing) that I’ve finished in 3.5 years… With an outstanding GPA. Yet zero chance to complete my studies. I’m not sure if you’ve noticed the gapping holes in this story or how disfunction the Education system is…

I came up with these conclusions if the problem was with me… (which I’m sure it’s not me)

I’m either:
- Unlucky.
- Too ambitious.
- Too good for this education system.

Since we all know I’m not the problem here.

Maybe…. Just maybe.

They should ensure “A” students a chair in a univirsity before they finish college

I forgot to mention something really important here… Even with all my 3 diplomas I can’t get a job. Which is the most disturbing annoying part…

 
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Posted by on September 2, 2012 in Personal

 

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My List of Best bands in Kuwait

The other day I was checking out Kuwait-Music.com They had a list of bands with the most Facebook Fans. So I thought I should make a list of the most bands I listen to or Like.

So here is my list:

Metal bands/artist:

1. Depth
2. Benevolent
3. Eyeresist
3. Black Well
4. Voice of the Soul
5. Khalid AlMansour
6. Divine Disorder
7. Bader Nana
8. EarSplit
9. Black13Angelz

Ps: There are 2 bands in the 3rd place cause I can’t decide who’s better, they are both awesome.

Rock/Blues bands:

1. Freefall
2. Jellyshot
3. Reset String
4. Suburban man

 
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Posted by on June 15, 2012 in Middle East, Music, Personal

 

List of what I’m Currently watching/Reading!

So as I was going through the TV shows and Anime That I’m watching I thought why not put them in a list? So here I am listing what I’m currently watching.

What I’m Watching?

Anime:

1. Area no Kishi (Airing) – TV, PG-13
2. Basilisk: Kouga Ninpou Chou – TV, R+
3. Fairy Tail (Airing) – TV, PG-13
5. Ginga e Kickoff!! (Airing) – TV, PG
6. Kore wa Zombie Desu ka? of the Dead – TV, R
7. Kuroshitsuji – TV, PG-13
8. One Piece (Airing) – TV, PG-13
9. SKET Dance (Airing) – TV, PG-13
10. Tasogare Otome x Amnesia (Airing) – TV, R
11. Toriko (Airing) – TV, PG-13
12. Upotte!! – ONA, R
13. Zetman (Airing) – TV, R+

Check out MyAnimeList to see what I’ve watched.

TV Series:

1. Dexter
2. Melissa & Joey
3. Grimm
4. True Blood
5. Being Human

Japanese Drama:

1. Strawberry on a shortcake

Korean Drama:

1. Boys before Flowers

What I’m Reading?

Manga:

1. Another
2 Berserk (Publishing)
3 Black Bird (Publishing)
4 Black Rock Shooter – Innocent Soul – (Publishing)
5 Bleach (Publishing)
6 Blue Friend ~2nd Season~ (Publishing)
7 Dengeki Daisy (Publishing)
8 Fairy Tail (Publishing)
9 Fullmetal Alchemist
10 Gantz (Publishing)
11 Gensou Suikoden II – Hiki Sakareshi Shukusei (Publishing) ps: this manga is based on the ps1 game Suikoden II
12 Highschool of the Dead (Publishing)
13 Nana Publishing
14 Nousatsu Junkie
15 Renai Idenshi XX (Publishing)
16 Shinigami Alice (Publishing)

Comic books:

1. Paul Reverse

Books:

1. Switch: How to change things when change is hard
2. The Truth about you

 
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Posted by on June 12, 2012 in Personal

 
 
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